the ryan who you know, who writes all this garbage day in and day out,  is a huge idiot. i am an idiot. i say so much stupid stuff

inside my head is a calmer and more rational version of myself. it is the voice i hear inside my head, and the voice which keeps me from doing aggressively stupid stuff as opposed to the mildly stupid stuff i muck around with on a daily basis

anyway: there is a sentence i often hear myself create way deep inside my brain where the mainframes and controls and circuitry and all that other shit lives

i hear this sentence when i am anywhere doing anything

the sentence is spoken by the calm and rational ryan, and to me he says this: “what the hell are you doing? we have to get the fuck out of here pronto, bitch”