14 June 2018

“quit putting a god damn dollar sign on every fucking thing on this planet”

13 June 2018

THIS WEBSITE exists for a few reasons, and one of those reasons is so I can PLACE MYSELF in TIME . . . otherwise I’d have no idea where the hell I was, or when, and even then. . . .

Anyway today I chose to look at November 2014. I don’t know why. I guess I liked that time. It was a good time. I was about to move into a cool-ass house in a cool-ass neighborhood with my best friends.

And it seems I wrote a post with a list of things I had hoped to do way the hell back then:

OK, here are some things I am either doing or going to do very soon (in no order):

  • Get my cat’s shots
  • Finish my stupid novel
  • Move to North Oakland (this is happening Friday!)
  • Sell my car
  • Buy a motorcycle
  • Finish designing a website where I will post three science-fiction stories a week (whoa this is almost done)
  • Get a vasectomy (hah! seriously!)
  • Get on food stamps (I think this will be done sometime this week)
  • Go to the dentist (I want this more than anything else)
  • Kiss someone cool????

Yeah!

OK well let’s see that once more, except this time I’m going to cross out what I actually did in the interim, nearly four years ago now:

OK, here are some things I am either doing or going to do very soon (in no order):

  • Get my cat’s shots
  • Finish my stupid novel
  • Move to North Oakland (this is happening Friday!)
  • Sell my car
  • Buy a motorcycle
  • Finish designing a website where I will post three science-fiction stories a week (whoa this is almost done)
  • Get a vasectomy (hah! seriously!)
  • Get on food stamps (I think this will be done sometime this week)
  • Go to the dentist (I want this more than anything else)
  • Kiss someone cool????

Yeah!

Nice~~

did design a little website where I posted stories, but I ended up shelving it. Made more sense to consolidate everything here!!!

Why didn’t I ever buy a motorcycle? I still wanna. I even took a motorcycle safety course last October and got certified and everything. I reckon all I gotta do is go down to the DMV and get an M1 license. Hmm.

And for GOD’S SAKE why haven’t I published my completely finished novel?? It’s pretty good! maybe

Anyway yeah. I did it. I did a bunch of that stuff. Thank our Heavenly Father, and all that. I guess I should make a new list now.

Well, the end!

11 June 2018

The long howl thrills me through! Peace! ye revellers, and set the watch! Oh, life! ’tis in an hour like this, with soul beat down and held to knowledge,—as wild, untutored things are forced to feed—Oh, life! ’tis now that I do feel the latent horror in thee! but ’tis not me! that horror ’s out of me! and with the soft feeling of the human in me, yet will I try to fight ye, ye grim, phantom futures! Stand by me, hold me, bind me, O ye blessed influences!

07 June 2018

the double dose of comfort and sheer terror you get from reading something that resonates DEEP WITHIN YOU like a dark endless scream!!

yes: we both experience the same reality . . . but we’re also both trapped inside of it, and there’s nothing we can do for each other except acknowledge our shared misery!

07 June 2018

I was driving to work today in the Datsun, and I was listening to KALX, which is UC Berkeley’s radio station (90.7 if you’re in Oakland / Berkeley). And they were playing this stuff that sounded real familiar to me, and I liked it a whole lot. After the song ended, the DJ said something about it being from PEACH KELLI POP’s new album. My good friend Danielle Lee Sims is friends with the guitarist, and wouldn’t you know it, they really did put out a new album two weeks ago. It’s good stuff. It’s honest as hell. GENTLE LEADER is what they’ve called it, and man, yeah.

ANYWAY: So I texted Danielle and told her this, and she . . . did something I guess, so now I’m on “the list” for their show at Hemlock Tavern in San Francisco on June 28th. Whoa! Anyone wanna go with me? I asked world-famous French Canadian multimedia artist Laura Rokas if she wanted to go, but she just rolled her eyes because she hates me. I will for sure go all alone . . . I used to do that all the time when I lived in Austin all those years ago. But then again, I did end up developing something of a drinking problem more or less because of this. And then my girlfriend stopped liking me, I think, because all I was ever doing was getting drunk and going to rock shows. Don’t let me slip back into that world! Come with me!!

I have offered to let the whole band crash at my fortified compound on the Oakland-Berkeley border. Hey, maybe they’ll take me up on it. At any rate I have a long history of helping bands pack and unpack their equipment, so at the very least maybe I’ll get to do that, seeing how it’s the only thing I’m good at anymore outside of parallel parking.

Anyway: Get that album! Help em out!!!!

Yeah baby!!!!!!!!!

07 June 2018

hey that’s my car

(names blurred to protect the innocent)

07 June 2018

I PACED THE STREETS
IN ALL DIRECTIONS
DRIVEN ON BY WRETCHEDNESS