thanks hali

I don’t know where to go, I stay planted in front of the cardboard chef. I don’t need to turn around to know they are watching me through the windows: they are watching my back with surprise and disgust; they thought I was like them, that I was a man, and I deceived them. I suddenly lost the appearance of a man and they saw a crab running backwards out of this human room. Now the unmasked intruder has fled: the show goes on. It annoys me to feel on my back this stirring of eyes and frightened thoughts.

I turn back, lean both hands on the balustrade. The true sea is cold and black, full of animals; it crawls under this thin green film made to deceive human beings. The sylphs all round me have let themselves be taken in: they only see the thin film, which proves the existence of God. I see beneath it! The veneer melts, the shining velvety scales, the scales of God’s catch explode everywhere at my look, they split and gape. Here is the Saint-Elémir tramway, I turn round and the objects turn with me, pale and green as oysters.

dude yeah

someone tried to run me over with their car again

whenever i do some research into who on planet earth Has Money And Notority i am always left feeling deeply confused and disheartened

If you are honest they will hate you and kill you

I had a vision in my head of glowing immortal people swimming through a warm river at midnight and talking to each other along the way and it seemed like a good afterlife to me

I know that, as far as people go, I am really not a bad one, but I still feel ashamed that I am not a better one

I am trapped in a particular sort of hell where I make just enough money to survive in this city, but not enough to leave it

And everyone I don’t want to know wants to know me, but everyone I do want to know doesn’t want to know me

Hmm!

I’m not entirely sure what The Universe was attempting to communicate to me when, a few minutes ago while walking through Berkeley, I happened upon two black cats fighting each other

But I’ll tell you what: I sure did break up that fight

I said, “Knock it off, you sons of bitches!”

And I chased the smaller of the two cats away, because he was being an asshole

And as I continued down the sidewalk, I passed the big black cat, and I gave him a nod, and I’ll be damned if he didn’t seem relieved