When I was a kid, I asked my older sister Tara why I had freckles on my face, and she said she’d given me some of hers because she’d hugged me so much.

Tara was a kind and beautiful person who had a very difficult life. She was my sister. She died today.

I love you, Tara. I’ll miss you forever.

me and dante a few days before my 27th birthday

Laura made this when we first moved to North Oakland with Tracey. Notice that Dante and Laura are holding hands!!

OK, so, it is absolutely hideous right now, but I have built an archives page:

>> HERE IT IS~~ <<

I’m gonna beautify it. I don’t know how, but I’m going to make it so it’s not just a fuckin list of months.

Also: if you do end up going through any of this stuff, especially the older stuff, please be gentle with me. I have always been a disgruntled cynic, but maybe I used to be clumsier about it. Or perhaps you will find that my views and ways of expressing them have not changed much in all the years I have been publishing stuff on this website. Well, fine! In a world where no one ever really means what they say, at least I’ve always been consistent!!!

<3

i sleep in this t-shirt every night

(i am 12 here (that t-shirt is over 16 years old!!))

my hero

Does anyone want to come watch like twenty episodes of the Twilight Zone with me tomorrow???

Here is my current bio:

RYAN STARSAILOR is “an endless self-perpetuating black hole who got lost on the way to his own birthday party.”

You can swap out “birthday party” for “funeral” if you wish~

thanks y’all~~

This uhhhhh make more sense than anything else I’ve ever read, to be perfectly honest!!!

This is what I’m working with until I evacuate the state of Oregon and head back down to California