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A WEEK OR SO AGO

. . . I went through the backend of my website and (childishly) nuked some posts from September and October and November because I felt hurt and I never wanted to look at them again.

I was mistaken . . . it was a bad decision I had made rashly. So tonight I restored those posts because I felt sentimental . . . these people and places and things are, after all, part of The Tapestry of My Life (or whatever). And anyway, I don’t want them to go away. They live inside my head . . . they may as well live here too, which is just my head but on the internet.

I was also spurred on, perhaps accidentally on his part, by my good friend Tombo in Spain.

Earlier today Tombo had asked if he could call me:

. . . and when he finally did call, we had a three-hour long conversation about many things:

Most of my friends are women, and so I get a lot of very good advice from women. But sometimes you just need a dude to talk to about some stuff, and Tombo is always the best man for the job. He is like my friend Nora in that his advice to me will occupy a Neutral / Rational position. Listen: I always treasure it. Tonight his sage-like advice was particularly good. It made me feel much better about everything (for now??). There was even some of that much-needed Tombo optimism sprinkled in . . .

God help me, at one point I warned him that I was gonna get a little flowery talking about how I felt about something. He laughed and said, referencing MCCABE & MRS. MILLER: “You’ve got poetry in you.”

To which I of course replied:

By the time we finally hung up (it was 5 am in Madrid), I felt I had to restore those posts I had deleted, which I have just spent the last hour doing.

So yeah . . .

A WEEK OR SO AGO

THE END!