Hello!

You should be seeing the new design. I can see it at any rate. If you can’t see it: clear your cache?? I’m still working on it, though I reckon it looks good enough to just go ahead and toss up here. The differences are subtle! But I totally gutted the insides, which was mostly what I wanted to do. The theme I had been using, which I designed over four years ago while catastrophically depressed in a coffeeshop in Portland, was super bloated. It had like hundreds of lines of unnecessary code and it was getting pretty creaky. So here’s this thing! It’s prettier I think. I even made it Halloween-themed.

Also!

I finally finished making my store, which is called

My friend Janet made that for me years ago, because I was going to do something with that name. I’ve completely forgotten what I was gonna do. So now it’s the name of my back alley Internet Store that sells increasingly arcane T-shirts that probably I am alone in thinking are cool. Hey that’s fine. I’ve already ordered some for myself, and they showed up, and they look really good! I’m just some idiot so I was pleasantly surprised they weren’t a disaster. Also, they’re so soft.

I mean, come on:

OK I’m going to sleep!!! I’ll write more tomorrow, when I wake up at 2 p.m. Hah!

a truly sad thing i’ve come to realize is that when you get down to it, the united states really is just a crushingly nihilistic country.

october 2nd, 2020

this right here is the chocolate-peanut butter swirl of film. when you see this, you know you’re about to have a real good time

and a good time is exactly what i needed because today was horrible and we, as a country, are totally boned. oops!

tomorrow i’m going to wake up and get coffee and donuts with my friend emma. and then i’m going to come home and write out a detailed plan for how i’m going to get back to berlin. maybe i’ll post it here!

ok my melatonin tea has now fully sedated me. all i have to do is close my eyes and sail away to nightmareland. good-night! ☆彡

i felt pretty bummed out today for no reason in particular . . . guess it was just the gravity of mere being that got me down. hah!

at some point in the evening, i looped this for probably close to an hour, what with it feeling like just the sort of thing i needed to hear right then and there

Last night I walked nearly 14 miles all over the East Bay. Mostly I was alone, though I did walk by some parties around UC Berkeley campus, which is insane. Y’all are seriously having parties during a pandemic??

Anyway it was an accident that I walked so far, and by the time I got home around 2 am my entire body was sorer than hell. I made some sleepy time tea and dissolved a melatonin in it and went the hell to sleep. I dreamed about this girl I knew a long time ago, and in the dream she held my hand! It was cute. But I made the mistake of leaving the dream room, and so of course when I tried to go back again she was gone. In my dreams people always disappear if I try to go back into a room I’ve already been in. Or someone else will be there in their place, and usually it’s someone you don’t want to hang out with. It’s a bummer.

Well: I slept till 2 pm and, yes, upon waking I realized I had destroyed my body in exerting it so much. Oh well! Time for bed again~

I love enamel pins. They’re so cute. I’m going to start making some of my own. But anyway here are some cute pins I’ve gotten recently~

Wow! I’m almost done with the new site. I’ve been working on it all week, round about eight to ten hours a day! At times I have forgotten to eat and shower. But now I can finally relax because I only have like an hour or two left to go before it’s ready to Go Live.

(Hmm. I reckon this is the third major iteration of starsailor dot co. Whoa.)

Also: I have created a store. So far I’ve made five shirts, though I’ve got a few more I’m working on.

Here are some of them:

(Tombo & Belgians take note: international shipping is only like $6.)

Basically I’m just making a bunch of shirts that I’m going to wear (lol) . . . but it’d be cool if y’all bought some too!! Black will be the only color, because come on. And with the exception of the inner label, there is no branding on them whatsoever! It’s just a black T-shirt with a black and white image on it. Yeah!

OK I’m gonna finish my cup of coffee and eat a gummy and go on a long walk. It’s 70 degrees out and nighttime, for god’s sake. And then I’m going to come back and finish this stuff. Maybe I’ll unveil it tomorrow. I guess we’ll both find out tomorrow afternoon when I roll my dumb ass out of bed!!!

me and dante