today is july 5th, which is the 186th day in a standard non-leap year. 179 days remain until the end of the year. and so saying: i have so far watched 188 movies since january 1st. at this rate i will clear 365 movies by the end of the year, one for every day. wow! i’m a loser.

according to letterboxd’s detailed statistics, these actors are my Most Watched actors:

unsurprisingly, my girlfriend jennifer connelly currently wears the crown . . .

(also: rest in peace to my brothers harry dean stanton, gene jacket hackman, and david bowie.)

well! all i can say is that if you don’t have a girlfriend or children or any real responsibilities in life, and everyone you know keeps ghosting you, then you too can escape the despair of mere existence and live inside the magical world of cinema every night of the week.

and now i resume my lonely howard hughesian lifestyle until the sun absolutely sets on time itself!!!

Future things swim before me, as in empty outlines and skeletons; all the past is somehow grown dim.

Oh, life! ‘tis now that I do feel the latent horror in thee! but ‘tis not me! that horror’s out of me, and with the soft feeling of the human in me, yet will I try to fight ye, ye grim, phantom futures!

moby-dick

today was the fourth of july. i spent it the only way i know how: by sitting alone on my balcony wishing i were dead