for now we see through a glass, darkly; but then face to face

Dear Julia turned 30 and threw a big party at her place in Wedding . . . and of course Elina and I were there to lend our combined celebrity.

i mean . . . honestly though!

. . . he seemed to hear in his own true heart the measureless sobbing that stole out of the centre of the serenity around.

—moby-dick, starbuck upon observing ahab’s hidden sorrow and loneliness

classic elina

it is 3:55 a.m. here in berlin and i just gazed darkly into the mirror and said aloud to no one other than the tired and vaguely familiar face staring back at me: “what have we become?” LOL

i celebrate your existence