going to california with an aching in my heart

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ahhhhhh!!!!!!!

i’m going crazy!!!!!!!!!

:,)

Here are Saint Monty and Saint Emmi in requisite green . . . today was Saint Patrick’s Day, after all. Monty went to work nannying other people’s children, and Emmi went about being a domestic cat.

As someone who was once described as “the most spiritually unemployed person alive”—I of course spent the entire day in bed napping and drinking coffee and answering phone calls and working on this thing I’m making. I think this thing is gonna be cool, but then I have to think that . . . someone has to . . .

In the evening I made the executive decision to skip Chicago for now (it’s too cold) and go in April when I’m back on the East Coast. And so this weekend I’m flying straight to Los Angeles to film everything I’ve got to film there, which feels daunting to do alone, given how much I have to film, but what other choice do I got? I don’t yet have the budget to bring anyone with me. They tell me it’s something like 90 degrees in LA right now, and not much better in the Bay where I’m headed after that, which is a bummer. No matter where I go, I can’t seem to escape Freak Weather . . . give me a break with this!

Hello? Are you in Los Angeles? Amissa? Cera? Pallas? Sahar? I’ll see you in a few days . . . does anyone want to hold a camera for me? Or perhaps hold an umbrella over me while I film? I’ll bet the UV index is fucking crazy right now . . .

this is what my phone looks like all day btw (i love it)

5:20 am here in new york city and i am lying here in the dark sighing of course

josef manés

I am supposed to be in Chicago right now, but it’s Too Cold to film outside . . . today in Chicago it was all of 20 degrees (-6.66°C), and tomorrow will be much of the same. I can’t very well ask Gayle and her Clown Guild to work in those conditions! And so I am staying in New York till Wednesday night or Thursday morning, whichever bus is cheaper. Hey, it’s OK with me . . .

Eventually, as in Very Soon, I need to figure out how I’m going to get to California from Chicago. I have thought about driving, but that’s a lot of driving, about 2,000 miles (3.2km) of rough road across Illinois and Iowa and Nebraska and Colorado and Utah and Nevada to get to Los Angeles. Oakland would be even farther by about 100 miles. I’ve done both trips before . . . I could do it again! Maybe I will. I don’t know yet!! I’d definitely do it if I didn’t have to do it alone. But of course I will be alone. I’ll sleep on it!

Anyway . . .

It’s raining like hell outside and I’m hungry, so I reckon I ought to BRAVE IT now in order to eat . . . at least it’s well above freezing here in Ridgewood.

Man! I’m writing and filming stuff and hanging out with people and having a strange-good time otherwise. You know??

Listen:

I LOVE IT . . .