I have been hiding out at my friend Ryan’s house for the last week . . . I’ve known Ryan for almost 28 years. He and his wife have been feeding me and bathing me (just kidding lol) and I even have my own room in the basement. I only got a few more days left in the US before I go back to Berlin . . . and then in January I’m going to Japan for a whole ass month. After that it’s a secret . . . but knowing my dumb ass, I’ll probably write about it here soon enough. Hah!

this is basically me

. . . incoming texts from Cat Girls!!

me every night for the last 30 years

This is not a Sad Post. I said I was done with those for now. I don’t wanna be moaning here all the time! So this is just a declarative statement: My nervous system has not regulated itself yet . . . I am not sure how to speed that along. I cannot stop my mind from analyzing every little thing. I wonder what you’re supposed to do about that . . .

This is not a Sad Post, but if it’s OK with you, I am going to make it just a little Melancholic because it is the truth: Hey, what can I say . . . I miss someone a lot. I don’t know what to do about that either. The missing this person feeling is so powerful. I have been surprised by how powerful this feeling has felt.

found this in my bag tonight and felt a little feeling