i know cool people. i have a cool life. i love my life lol

amissa has arrived in oakland and claims to have enjoyed the coffee i made her 💚

making coffee for BEX and co. with hair that resembles an eraserhead spirit halloween wig lol

TODAY

. . . my friend Emel-Elizabeth, aka The Girl From Estonia, called me via WhatsApp, and we spoke for something like three hours. It was the middle of the afternoon here in California, but for her, in Estonia, it was the middle of the night. I watched her roll something like three or four cigarettes and drink what seemed like an entire box of white wine she had in her refrigerator. Whenever she got up, she took her computer with her . . . and so I went with her too, and saw the whole place, which had wooden and wallpapered walls, and a little kitchen like the ones you see in studio apartments in Tokyo. She lives in the capital city Tallinn, and told me she pays something like €400 a month to live alone, which is nuts. I didn’t tell her what I pay here because she probably would have had a stroke.

Anyway: It was a very sweet call. I won’t betray the contents of it here! But she told me to come to Estonia and meet her mom and I said I would. And she read poetry to me in Estonian, and summarized what she had read . . . and then proved she speaks six languages by speaking in complete paragraphs to me in six languages. Says I to her: Dang, girl!!

Finally, round about four in the morning in Estonia, she told me she had to go to sleep. I promised her I would read some Rainer Maria Rilke, and told her I loved her and that I would see her again in Berlin, and then we waved goodbye and hung up.

Now it is almost four in the morning here in California so I should probably go to sleep. For her it’s the middle of the day. Well! I guess that’s just how it is for now. But soon . . . !

Off the top of my head, I can’t remember how to say good-night in Estonian. Back in the spring she had written me a letter with some Estonian phrases, so maybe one of these can suffice for now:

lol

ok bye!! ☆彡

no one asked but here are my uhh top five favorite TV shows??

(i omitted twin peaks and cowboy bebop because that’s too easy)

my friend maddie sent me a postcard from The Road— from north texas, and written in albuquerque, while traveling with our friend’s band. i had been expecting it and was Very Glad Indeed when it showed up today, because lord knows i needed something like this. the front has that like lenticular material where the image changes when you moved it around. i had a trapper keeper in the MID 90s (!!!) that had a similiar design. anyway i pixelated the message itself because you can’t just go telling everyone the contents of a postcard intended for your eyes only! know this: it’s very sweet.

thanks maddie~ 👽

i don’t know how well i’ve hidden this (or if i’ve even bothered to), but living alone and working from my bedroom for a year really has turned me into a howard hughesian hermit-freak. maybe by some metric you could argue i’ve grown increasingly deranged, but more accurately i’d say it has just amplified my eccentricities. so be it. age was always going to push me into those stranger realms— it’s just that i took a shortcut to get there is all. not a bad thing! just to be clear though: i am not yet at the point where i subsist entirely on milk and cookies and subsequently piss into the empty milk jars. i’ll save that for my forties!

ok good-night ☆彡

last week i had a Movie Night with my Movie Buds

left to right: emma, cecelia, stevie, vicraj, hilary

chillin on the counter: me

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