i remember many years ago when i was obsessed with the beach boys, i read an interview with paul mccartney where he said he wept the first time he ever heard “god only knows”. i think that interview is actually what prompted me to buy “pet sounds” in the first place . . .

. . . and late last night, as i was stoned and making coffee in my kitchen, i was thinking about brian wilson, may he rest in peace, and “pet sounds”, and on and on . . . so of course i thought about that song. i put it on for the first time in a long time. i’ve heard “god only knows” at least a thousand times in my life, but for some reason when i heard it this time, i started sobbing. without even realizing it, i had in mind a particular person just then, and connecting them to that song cut me clean in half. i went back out into my living room and lay on the rug and listened to it a dozen more times before i finally fell asleep