for years i have been putting $2 bills in letters and mailing them to my friends
i have done this dozens of times
tonight i received a letter from my good friend in new york, and inside was a $2 bill
she didn't know i do that too!
this is the first time i've ever been the recipient of one
it made me so happy to open the envelope and see it inside
THE HOMERIC DEAD
ARE PATHETIC IN THEIR HELPLESSNESS,
INHABITING DRAUGHTY, ECHOING HALLS,
DEPRIVED OF THEIR WITS,
AND FLITTING PURPOSELESSLY ABOUT
UTTERING BATLIKE NOISES.
just for the hell of it, i dyed my hair blue-black
i had not done this in a long time, and i had only done it twice before
maybe it’s been ten years or more since i dyed my hair
well i’m realizing why: there’s no point in going darker, because i can’t tell the difference at all
i guess my hair was already dark enough
god knows my brain is!!!
welcome to my soggy hovel at the end of the world! and look! everything written here is a testament to my own cracked mental state, and is a constant source of embarrassment for everyone involved. though hey: it could be worse. if i keep writing long enough, i'll bet i could make it all get much worse. yes, i'm sure i could. and here's the thing: that's ok with me. what else am i gonna do? buy a house??
o! sweet spirit! when does the horror of human life end? when does the Big Machine shut down once and for all? when are there no more of us in existence to suffer through this long dark dream? when does earth, now rid of us, sigh and repair itself and get the hell on with it???
does it happen soon? does it ever?
will one last ragged toothless human being ride this choked planet like a carnival ride as it is swallowed up by the dead sun?
ok dude seeya later
what can i say???
CMW: if you still read this trash, i don’t know. you told me a long time ago that it made you sad and you had to stop. but that sometimes you get drunk and look at it anyway. i was thinking about it and man, we’re definitely never going to see each other again, huh? maybe that’s OK. i have no idea. anyway: i like you a lot, but it really is OK if that’s the case. yeah.