i tried speaking to THE GIRL FROM ESTONIA in estonian but, you know . . . i guess it’s kind of an obscure / niche language and she’s over it lol

and when i told her i just wanted to impress her mom, she assured me I Am Enough. p-phew!!

(one of my middle names means “protector / guardian” . . .)

((never been accused of being “well behaved” though))

p.s. i finally translated the mystery phrase from her letter, being ABORDI PÄRDIK (which i assumed had something to do with abortion), seen here:

and uh:

good-night!

BEX sent me star mail. how sweet! and i got my blublockers back . . . i had left them in her car when i was driving down to LA with her and her band a few weeks ago

i have not eaten pop rocks since i was like ten years old but YOU KNOW WHAT: i’m gonna pop em in my mouth and feel that old familiar feeling again

the postcard is cute, as are the contents on the opposite side, but i’m not going to post it here lol

says tracey:

aww~

i love it~

i’m gonna publish a big thing tomorrow night. it’s the longest non-fiction thing i’ve written in a long time. yeah!!

Amissa (human) and my goddaughters Peach (French bulldog) and Georgia (pug) came to visit me in Oakland. I took some cute pictures. Behold:

:,)

VERY SOON I will tell you why all my friends are heartin this thing. But for now it is a secret. It’s gotta be! In the meantime: thanks for the encouragement!

i know cool people. i have a cool life. i love my life lol

amissa has arrived in oakland and claims to have enjoyed the coffee i made her 💚

making coffee for BEX and co. with hair that resembles an eraserhead spirit halloween wig lol

TODAY

. . . my friend Emel-Elizabeth, aka The Girl From Estonia, called me via WhatsApp, and we spoke for something like three hours. It was the middle of the afternoon here in California, but for her, in Estonia, it was the middle of the night. I watched her roll something like three or four cigarettes and drink what seemed like an entire box of white wine she had in her refrigerator. Whenever she got up, she took her computer with her . . . and so I went with her too, and saw the whole place, which had wooden and wallpapered walls, and a little kitchen like the ones you see in studio apartments in Tokyo. She lives in the capital city Tallinn, and told me she pays something like €400 a month to live alone, which is nuts. I didn’t tell her what I pay here because she probably would have had a stroke.

Anyway: It was a very sweet call. I won’t betray the contents of it here! But she told me to come to Estonia and meet her mom and I said I would. And she read poetry to me in Estonian, and summarized what she had read . . . and then proved she speaks six languages by speaking in complete paragraphs to me in six languages. Says I to her: Dang, girl!!

Finally, round about four in the morning in Estonia, she told me she had to go to sleep. I promised her I would read some Rainer Maria Rilke, and told her I loved her and that I would see her again in Berlin, and then we waved goodbye and hung up.

Now it is almost four in the morning here in California so I should probably go to sleep. For her it’s the middle of the day. Well! I guess that’s just how it is for now. But soon . . . !

Off the top of my head, I can’t remember how to say good-night in Estonian. Back in the spring she had written me a letter with some Estonian phrases, so maybe one of these can suffice for now:

lol

ok bye!! ☆彡

no one asked but here are my uhh top five favorite TV shows??

(i omitted twin peaks and cowboy bebop because that’s too easy)