every time i get close to living some sort of normal life, it is either taken away from me or i find some way to sabotage it myself. i think i just need to stop trying to have one of those lives. there’s no way it’s ever going to work for me. and no one is going to let themselves get close to me because of that. i need to take the restrictor plate off and go full-blown can’t-relate-to-anyone weirdo, or just disappear. or have them follow in that order. who am i kidding, asking girls out and applying for writing gigs and putting down security deposits. world ain’t got nothing for me, man. it’s a shame but it’s the truth.