what in god’s name am i doing awake

it’s 5:30 a.m. pacific standard time

for god’s sake

i cried for the first time in a year a few minutes ago and it was so great

it wasn’t a sad cry, just a nice neutral one

one of those “look dude you need to cry or your body is going to explode” cries

lord almighty

what do i need to make that happen again

seriously please email me with tips