26 January 2016

i knew someone a long time ago and she was a very good friend of mine. i loved her a lot. i loved her so much that i have never loved anyone else the same way. i completely destroyed her and i don’t know why. she was so good to me. she was such a sweet and loyal person and she was my very good friend. she stayed beside me until she had to go away.

i don’t ever sleep, so i am awake during the lonely times when lonely people are very lonely. and i think of all the stupid god damn things i’ve done, and that is absolutely the thing that i would go back and change. and not even so that i could still know her, but so she wouldn’t have had to go through that and feel all those terrible things that i made her feel.

i am sure that she is gone forever but i miss her every day