remember that scene in ‘the empire strikes back’ where luke is training with yoda on dagobah and he senses evil inside this weird-ass tree and luke says “what’s in there?” and yoda says “only what you take with you”

and he goes inside and there’s like a hallucination / apparition of darth vader and luke battles him and he cuts his head off and the helmet explodes and he sees his own face in the vader mask

yeah

well if you want to know what my life has been like recently, it’s like being inside that evil tree and battling darth vader and seeing my face inside the mask, except instead of this taking place in five minutes it takes place in slow motion over the course of two months