oh, god, i think i just had the first panic attack of my life.
i was driving home from baltimore and i thought that i have no place to put this feeling, which for the sake of convenience i guess i will call “love,” and i became very sad indeed!
i panicked! for god’s sake i wept.
i will go it alone and do it straight because what the fuck else can you do.
no more people. i can’t deal with the feeling i get when there is no room for me any longer.