i woke up this afternoon and i was like “yeah dude” because i have achieved victory over The Past (lol) which is to say i have zero curiosity about it anymore. i am done with it, and it is done with me. i have no reason to look back into it because it would be like gazing into a dark room. good-bye to all that, and thank christ. what a relief . . . i’m free!!!

listen: i’ll be outside working the door at the wolfhound tonight. i’m gonna take an adderall on the walk over so i’ll be real charming. it’s a little cold and a little rainy, but come talk to me! i’d like it very much if you did that~