The haters are going to have a field day with this one . . .
I’ve been saying this for years (to myself), but today I’m just going to call the thing what it is. I’m going to come out and publicly declare this:
Well, it’s true! lol
just found this in my drafts . . . this is what you all think of me!!!
I went ahead and HALLOWEEN-IFIED this place. Hey, why not!! May as well revel in it as long as possible . . .
My sister sent me these photos again today . . . they were taken last December in Friedrichshain by a 7-foot-tall (seriously) Dutchman who galloped through a throng of people on a crowded sidewalk to get to me. He asked if he could take my picture. This had only happened to me once or twice before so I was momentarily confused. I pointed toward my chest and said, “Me . . . ?”
And so I got my picture took by the Running Dutchman (while, unbeknownst to me, my sister documented it from a different angle). He gave me his card and told me to check his website in a few days, and then he hauled ass in the opposite direction to go be Dutch someplace else.
I was in the throes of intense psychic pain when these were taken. I was emotionally and spiritually exhausted and was wandering around in a haze. I can see the sadness in my own eyes here. I wish I could say it lifted my spirits for a street photographer to find me visually interesting, but it didn’t. I spent the next three months suffering in the outermost darkness where not even time exists. Exactly one month later, I very nearly died of an overdose in Tokyo. And yet I live.
So why am I posting these pictures again if the memory of that time reminds me of my own despair? Because I’m not afraid. Hah!
Remember what the fella said: the world breaks everyone, and afterward many are strong at the broken places . . . I hope that is true.
made a celebrity guest appearance in two different people’s dreams last night . . .
see u wednesday . . .
yeah yeah yeah, people are always saying this guy is me
Yes . . . except I am Not Sad because I’m going to LONDON in TWO DAYS to see my FIANCÉE . . .
i love you so much!!!