i miss judy so much. she was the only other person i knew who stayed up all night like me. i remember we went on night walks during the pandemic when the streets in berkeley were completely empty. judy has been dead for over two years now. i’m still haunted by the fact that i did not drive over to her house when my texts went undelivered . . . i remember feeling like something was off. it would have been too late anyway, but i think about it from time to time.

this is the last thing she ever sent me, and it was in the middle of the night. she never got my reply. rest in peace, judy