hali and i used to say that the reason it was difficult to explain what it feels like to suffer from the godawful ailment we both share is because when you really get down to it, it is not something that can be put into words, as most mysterious and secret feelings tend to be. only a lifetime of being completely rewired by this thing allows you a membership into something you could never want in the first place. but i would often tell people it feels like having one foot in each dimension, with one existing in the shared objective reality that most people on this planet seem to live inside of . . . while the other world is something else entirely. oh that miserable place! we walk around, hali and me, with one eye seeing forward and the other a mirrored image. it is a world reversed! and nauseating to experience both simultaneously. oh god is it ever!
for now we see through a glass darkly . . . and also not!!!!!