10 October 2018

i have for various reasons over the years been punched and cut and split open

i also naturally have dark sadness marks beneath my eyes and have since i was a kid

well: due to a massive black eye i sustained during those dark days in ghost town, which is a truly miserable part of oakland, i now have a permanent slightly-more-shut-than-my-left-eye edgar-allan-poe-ass drooping right eye, and the broken capillaries beneath have never healed correctly, which looks ghoulish as hell all on its own

but! when i am extremely exhausted, like i am tonight, it looks like i have that same black eye all over again . . . five and a half godforsaken years later!

creeping jesus! i haven’t slept in six days. you should see this son of a bitch tonight!