21 May 2019

i’m having a really bad day, so i took an emergency cigarette from my desk, a lucky strike my friend victoria gave me when she was in oakland some time ago, and i walked around the block smoking it and crying

i was only outside for two or three minutes before it started pouring on me

this morning i woke up and realized i had left my car lights on, and so the battery was dead. i had to walk to work. i guess i am walking home in the rain, which, as a chronically dramatic person, suits me just fine i guess

i need money and then i need to finally leave it all. i don’t want any of it anymore and i haven’t for some time