me and dante are in bed playing mother 3 and it’s cold and rainy outside and we’re really cozy and it’s cute lol

laura: don’t worry, i’m naming the shit-talking pink-haired princess after you. i just haven’t gotten to her yet!!!

ok back to mother 3 lol love y’all

Hello!

For many years in the doom-metropolis called Oakland, my friends and I maintained a sacred ritual called DUDES DONE WRONG. Later, I alone ran the Portland branch when I spent a disastrous year living in that godawful place, and hopefully showed the fine people I knew there at least a few good movies that they still remember and think about sometimes. Or not! At any rate, it was a good run.

Well: Last week my spirit-brother Matt and I had GIRLS’ NIGHT IN here at our fortified compound on the Oakland-Berkeley border with our friends Marley and Delight, and oh my!!! We bought three bottles of $3.99 Trader Joe’s pig wine and two pizzas from Sliver and a whole bunch of face masks. And we talked and joked around and comforted each other in this time of mutually-felt darkness. Good lord, it was so good!!!

Anyway: We’ve decided to make this a once-a-week thing! Because why not! I think it’s gonna be on Thursday nights, which is when we used to Dudes. So if you ever wanna come on over, just say the word and my door’s open to you. I mean it.

Lookit my skin! I had been breaking out and having stress / sadness skin, which made me truly ghoulish, but one girls’ night in and I’m all straightened out!!!!

See y’all next week!!!! ☆彡

I know thee not, old man: fall to thy prayers;
How ill white hairs become a fool and jester!
I have long dream’d of such a kind of man,
So surfeit-swell’d, so old and so profane;
But, being awaked, I do despise my dream.

i slept last night. i slept for a long time. i slept like a teeny tiny little baby, and it was great.

today i woke up and made coffee and walked around my backyard with dante and then matt and i walked down to emeryville and bought a christmas tree. we carried it the whole way home.

yup!!!!

i saw two shooting stars in oakland tonight

thanks for all the nice emails by the way

☆彡

this website is public, though hell, it’s really just for me. i write things here so that i can place myself in time, what with me being so lost inside of it and all.

and in all honestly, i’m not posting this here to gloat that someone said something nice about me . . . i’m posting this so that it will be anywhere at all, and so i can find it again, and so i can feel better about myself because of how bad i feel about myself right now. (if there’s one thing i can count on in the future, it’s feeling bad about myself!!!!)

anyway: thank you, friend. i have anonymized you because even though you said something very sweet and sincere to me, i know you well enough to know you would be embarrassed to see this here with your name on it . . . which is ridiculous by the way!!! anyway ttyl lylas~

a real friend

and

all i’ve ever wanted was to be one of the girls~