Laura made this when we first moved to North Oakland with Tracey. Notice that Dante and Laura are holding hands!!
OK, so, it is absolutely hideous right now, but I have built an archives page:
I’m gonna beautify it. I don’t know how, but I’m going to make it so it’s not just a fuckin list of months.
Also: if you do end up going through any of this stuff, especially the older stuff, please be gentle with me. I have always been a disgruntled cynic, but maybe I used to be clumsier about it. Or perhaps you will find that my views and ways of expressing them have not changed much in all the years I have been publishing stuff on this website. Well, fine! In a world where no one ever really means what they say, at least I’ve always been consistent!!!
<3
i sleep in this t-shirt every night
(i am 12 here (that t-shirt is over 16 years old!!))
my hero
Does anyone want to come watch like twenty episodes of the Twilight Zone with me tomorrow???
Here is my current bio:
RYAN STARSAILOR is “an endless self-perpetuating black hole who got lost on the way to his own birthday party.”
You can swap out “birthday party” for “funeral” if you wish~
thanks y’all~~
This uhhhhh make more sense than anything else I’ve ever read, to be perfectly honest!!!
This is what I’m working with until I evacuate the state of Oregon and head back down to California
My mind is a disastrous ruinous nightmare city. But my body feels pretty OK!
I think it’s because I do the same stuff to my body every day. This is what I do:
- sleep in absolute darkness
- drink a gallon of green tea
- drink a gallon of water
- blend spinach, peanut butter, strawberries, blueberries and a banana together into a smoothie-thing and gulp it down quick
- combine half a cup of red quinoa with black beans and eggs and spinach in a huge bowl and eat the whole thing
- eat a bunch of almonds
- take zinc, magnesium citrate, and vitamins B6/B12, D and E
Then I take a 30-second shower. Then I run a bath and fill it with epsom salt and vitamin E oil. I light incense and listen to Cool Tunes. I hang out in there for an hour. When I get out, I use this coconut shit on my skin. It rules so hard.
I write at least 500 words. I read a BOOK. I go walkin.
Late at night, at 3 a.m., I go down into the basement and do push-ups and kettlebell curls until I feel like throwing up.
Don’t be fooled: It ain’t all pretty. There is a lot of self-loathing and muttering and absolute godawful dread that takes place along the way.
But anyway: There you go! bye
hali and me