i worry that the real guts of my life are gone and that i just try to recreate that feeling on the weekends but it seems phony

my life feels like television

i am watching television

the channels switch but it’s all television

‘Star Trek: The Motion Picture’ is not a great movie. It’s good but it ain’t great. And as my friend Zak “Delicious” McCune would say: “It’s got some stuff in it.” Some of that stuff is in these pictures I took of the movie playing on my stupidly gigantic TV!

AS PREVIOUSLY MENTIONED: I am watching all the ‘Star Trek’ movies by myself. I’m back from New York so now I have to get through the ‘Next Generation’ era movies, which, man, is probably not going to be a whole lot of fun. Some of them are OK though! Tonight I’m getting hot and heavy with ‘Star Trek VII: Generations’ which is the one where Picard and Kirk meet. Yeah. This soldier is ready for combat, baby. I’m ready to jump into the trenches and get on with the thing.

Will you join me? No! You can’t, because this is a journey I have to fly solo on, baby. I am an unmarried childless 29-year-old man with no great purpose. What else am I going to do other than watch all these fuckin things in the dark??

I really am making a li’l subsite! With a paragraph or two about each movie! It’s going to be an OK thing to look at. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise: even the bad ones are worth watching. There’s stuff in all of them, whether you dig ‘Star Trek’ or not. H’okay?

Anyway:

Kirk out~

can someone make a painting of me exiting a black starship onto a dark barren icy moon

and on my starship is a huge smeary skull with star-shaped eye sockets

and i’m wearing a black spacesuit and screaming inside my suit

and dante is standing next to me in a little grey spacesuit

thank’s

i am by no means a Cool Guy now, but sometimes when i think about how terrifyingly uncool i used to be i almost feel like throwing up (lol)

how embarrassing